My mind is racing 100mph and I NEED to go to bed so I”m not overly tired and cranky in the morning. I miss him i miss him i miss him. This is my first night without him since meeting him..and my bed is too empty and cold without him in it. :( Usually it’s comfortably cold for me, but tonight it’s brutally cold.  I miss laying my head on his chest a bit until i get uncomfortable and roll over to go to sleep. :( I can’t sleep..and i need to. Aghh. TUMBLR SING ME A LULLABY GOD DAMN IT.

ON another note.

I start work tomorrow. and i’ll be making around $400.00 this week.

Booyah.  

   It’s been forever and a day since I’ve posted, and boy a shit ton has changed with me. David and I are over.  When our relationship was failing it hurt me bad, but then I came to terms and realized how unpleasant of a person he really was.  So, kick him out of the apartment and move on is what I did!
  There’s these two amazing people in my life that have helped me get over that whole situation and I don’t even think that they realize it.  The first is my cousin Tori.  She’s always been there for me, and lately all she’s done is be there for me.   I can call her and it’s garuanteed she’ll call me back that day and talk to me for as long as I need.  She knows just the right things to say to make me smile and laugh when I need it most. :)
   The second person is someone that once was just a stranger to me, but now means more to me than he could possibly imagine.  He’s not a boyfriend, but a best friend.  I think that he thinks I’m not okay with being just friends, but really, I am.  I DO most certainly care for him than more than a friend, which at the moment I don’t think is a good thing. I mean, I do, but I don’t. I think it’s a good thing because I think he really needs someone that cares right now.  He might not want to admit it or anything, but I think he does.  I think it’s not a good thing because he is like..fighting it and trying so hard to not….idk..like me? Care for me? I’m not sure. It’s confusing. But he’s like..fighting with himself over this whole thing and just making it so much more complicated than what it needs to be. Does anyone know what I mean? When you can like..just kind of go with the flow let life happen and see what the outcome is, but instead you just….have this war with yourself and frustrate yourself so much each day over it because you’re confused and don’t know what to do.  That’s pretty much what’s going on with him. Lol.  Idk, though. He’s an amazing guy. He’s really sweet and fucking hilarious.  It’s nice to be able to laugh again, and actually feel safe around a guy instead of having the feeling that I’m in harm.  *sigh* I’m afraid to say this with fear that he’ll come across this some day but I’m sure he already knows..that I love him.  I’m not quite IN LOVE with him yet..but it’s almost there…and so it pains me that he all of a sudden is trying to pull away..but i’m perfectly fine with it.  I’m a supportive person and will pretty much do what makes him happy, and I don’t think he realizes that yet.
   Other than the above mentioned things, nothing else has really happened. Other than the fact that today my tire on my car got slashed…or flattened and looks like it’s slashed. I’m not sure because I didn’t look at it but my friend did and said it was slashed..so i called David and he laughed and said i want my money then hung up. It’s a bit fishy that he did that, if you ask me.

Followers, I miss you all lots! I’ll be getting on here more. Or at least try to. What’s new with all you?

Is absolutely broken…and…shattered. For quite some time it will be now. It’s un-mendable. 

I honestly feel like..I’m having a constant heart attach. 

David and I broke up.

it’s for good this time. 

That’s the end of my ‘fairy tale’, tumblr.

Awhh, thanks anon. :) Why can’t you post this with your username? :O

Umm. 0_0

mmm.

Wow.

Uhh.

*shivers*

  So sorry that I haven’t blogged in what seems like forever.  Life has been hectic with fights, trying to find a job, and all that good stuff. Anyways, I didn’t forget about you guys so you don’t have to worry about that. So, yeah!
 Not too much is new except my new baby. :) Her name is Rihanna ( named after…duh..rihanna) and she’s so fucking precious.  She’s the best kitty ever, and here’s a picture of her so you can all awe over her. :D

So yeah, that’s my baby kitty Rihanna that I love so so much. :) She’s such a fucking goofball too. haha.

Anyways. 

I really don’t have much to blog about because not a lot has happened. Well, it has, but I’ve decided to keep my relationship information inside my relationship and keep it off the webZ. :)

I think I’ll try finding a challenge or something to blog about every day….

Just so that i keep up with Tumblr. :)

Love you all! Keep following me.

<3Ally

I’ll be over in an hour ;P hahaha. i wish. i’d love to visit england.

sexisbeautiful:

Mandy Morbid

everything about her is gorgeous.

no joke.

idk what it is lately..

but guys with mohawks..

and girls with mohawks….

* especially girls for some reason*

really get me going.

it’s been an insta-turn on lately.

she’s beautiful.